I gotta christen the new WordPress theme. It’s really simple and organized, I dig it hardcore. I figured out today that I prefer writing on Xanga- my thoughts just come out much better for some reason. It’s because I don’t like this font. The font bothers me, it looks so unpolished and lame, thus making my thoughts feel unpolished and lame. But… on the whole wordpress is just so much better: the fact that to get to it you gotta type in my name in the actual URL- not after some big-ass slash mark, the way it has its own distinct theme, and I dunno… it just feels more mature. Which is rad.
But yeah, what’s up babe?
I’m in a very very good mood.
The days where I feel comfortable, relaxed, and open around Harriet are the best. Since I run myself into the ground a lot, it’s often hard to be myself around her. A lot of times I’m very tired and quite lazy. However, today was a day where I managed to be myself from start to finish and I hope it can be that way more often. I have to remember to rest. That’s all.
Right now I’m in a very pop-punk mood. It’s winter too, that’s surprising! Pop-punk is meant for the summer. The reason this is so is because most good pop-punk comes straight from southern california. And when you think of so-cal, sun, palm trees, and heat is what comes to mind. Then there’s the fact that my greatest memories of pop punk come from playing a thousand blink, sum 41, rancid, and green day covers with idiot ambush- playing for hours on end in the summer. For me to recall those memories is marvelous, truly. I’m happiest during the summer… well, hey, back up. That’s not true. But some of my best moments come from summer, that’s all. Yeah, yeah, it’s cliche’d and all… but summer just sets itself up to be memory-inducing. It’s all this time off from school, it’s warm out… yeah, that’s all I got. What more do you need to go out and have a great time?
I like xanga so much more because I really blog when I’m on xanga. On WordPress I just explain how things are in life. My opinions don’t get out too much. Why is this change? Hm, beats the hell out of me. But whatever.
Now I’ve got the Offspring going. Original Prankster. Gooood stuff.
John accuses me of being too gay/sexual a lot. Yet what he doesn’t realize is that all the music he listens to has made me who I am. Blink single handedly made me as gay and sexual as I am. And he loves blink to death. So i dunno, it kinda hurts when he yells at me for being “weird” when the reason for my weirdness all comes from a band/genre of music he religiously listens to.
Now I’m just randomly talking… as is what I normally do.
Fuck I’m bored. I’m bored because I can’t decide what to do. I want to sleep. I want to record. I want to watch my movie. I want to talk to someone. I want to eat. Ughh, dilemma.
I feel like a bitch every time Harriet has to go to work. She goes to work and I simply stay at home in my pajamas doing what I’ve been doing all day: nothing. I mean, granted, I work too. But not at the moment. And as long as I’m out of work, I feel like a dope. Nevertheless, I deserve this time off. I’ve worked very hard for Dominick’s. Even on days where I slack off like no other, I still end up being incredibly productive. I deserve this time off. At least I keep telling myself that.
Allow me to explain something. I’m working on two songs right now that have been around for quite a while… they just needed to be recorded. The first is a tune called Clouds. I had it. Turned it into my song for Laura for homecoming. now I’d like to make it the way it was intended to be at first. So that’s beeen on the backburner over five months. Then there’s this song Leap of Faith that has been waiting to be brought to life for wayyy too long. I had it as a potential track for Blue Season… and I know had it around for a loong time before then too. so… yeah. That one has been needing work for well over a year, I think. Today I threw a capo on it to a higher level to make my voice sound better… and I liked it so much that I finally decided to run with it.
I have to completely admit, my music is getting better than ever. Once I stopped caring about releasing music and focused solely on making it for the hell (love) of it? Things have been much better.
Hm, I probably shouldn’t be admitting this, but whatever. Thanks to Apollo’s Dream I’ve been seeing a lot of true potential in myself. I’ve come up with some gnarly drum and bass stuff that I’m very proud of. and I do say, if John ever reads this, I’ll probably get a fist in my face, but lately I’ve been feeling like AD is more of a duo than a trio. Sure, John basically writes the bass stuff or whatever… but it seems like the bass has been getting a hell of lot more interesting lately since I’ve been writing the lines/improving on John’s stuff. I wrote all the bass for Ashbourne, Shine, Shiro, and Elegy. And I definitely improved upon Wind Tunnel and Red&Grey. I guess I’m sharing this because I really do feel so great about being able to be so musically rounded. I’m not that kid who knows a thousand things but only knows a thousand things half-assed. I really dedicate myself to each facet of music I attend to. Bass, drums, guitar, recording, mixing, live performance. I really do work at everything I want. If I want success, I go get it. If I want results, I work hard. I realize that life is truly what you make of it… and I plan to make it amazing.
I asked Harriet what she wanted today.
She said she wanted the world.
I stumbled over my words trying to think of something witty to say…
but all I really wanted to say was: “Go get it.”
