Loverly.

Here are some Post-Christmas break thoughts: all that really needs to be said is that this was the greatest time off from school ever.  And I owe it solely to a special girl named Harriet.  I spent almost all of my time with her… and that’s only something to smile/brag/rejoice/sing about.  My every thought dwells on her and if I’m not with her, I’m wishing I were with her.  I love her to death and could honestly see myself with her for the rest of my life.  She’s that dear to me… we work that well together.  We bicker, we love, we joke, we discuss, we plan- we don’t keep secrets and we both put in 110% to make this the greatest thing we’ve ever been a part of… and it’s working.  I told her New Year’s day that I loved her… and I haven’t stopped telling her since.  Everything we have feels absurdly different than anything I’ve ever had before with anyone.  For once in my life she just isn’t in my life… she’s a part of it.  A huge part of it.  And that makes me love her even more.  I hope I can be a part of her life as well… I know I’m trying to do so.

However, not all my relationships are so stunning…

I’m falling off from this family so fast.  Well… just my mom.  but when there’s only three of us, that doesn’t leave much room for a family.  Dad and I are quite better than ever!  But my mother has been on a rampage lately and it’s killing me.  I don’t talk back.  I don’t argue.  I just take all her bullshit thinking it might make things easier… but it’s only hurting me.  Nevertheless, if I fight back… it’ll hurt more.  

There was a very beautiful moment yesterday that is burned into my head.  When Allen was leaving my house at the end of the day, Harriet gave him a nice, warm hug… and Allen did the same to her.  I felt really, really happy about that.  I can just see them getting closer… and it’s such a wonderful thing to witness.  My two best friends, one my lover, one my brother, really starting to bond.  That’s special to me.

Anyways, I’m gonna take yet another nap… I owe it to myself.  Kinda.

Here’s to love… may it always find its way into the hearts of deserving souls.