Not My Home

I hate Benet so much.  I feel really depressed right now, I’m so uncomfortable in my own skin.  I don’t want to face another day.  Yesterday was terrible at school.  I never once felt right being in those hallways.  Almost every class I was left to sit silent, having no one to talk to, because I don’t exactly have many friends.  Even in Advanced Comp I got a really weird look from Terrence S. because of a story I told, as if to say, “Wow, you are really weird.”  I just don’t feel right at Benet… and it ended up affecting my time with Harriet afterwards and now I woke up today feeling pretty crappy as well. 

I dunno.  I gotta figure out a way to survive the rest of my Senior year.  I think I’m only having such a hard time now because I’ve gotta readjust to the idea that Benet is a very lonely place for me.  Christmas break was filled with love, love, and more love.  Now Benet provides a helluva lot of despair.  I just gotta get used to that idea again.

I’ll try to make today a really good day, k?