March 26, 2008 at 7:52 pm (music, recording)
Tags: life, mikey, music, recording, Romancing The Angels, songwerks
“Dude, no fucking acoustic guitar artist uses up 6 guitar tracks.”
“Dude, you should see my other songs I do at home, I got like, 13 going at once sometimes.”
–Going into the studio today was a Testament that I’m doing stuff differently. And that I’m talented. And that I’m smart. And that I’ve got a good fucking head on my shoulders. And that music is what I’m supposed to be doing for the rest of my life.
Fuck following the rules. I’m gonna live life the way I want to.
March 24, 2008 at 8:46 pm (harriet)
Tags: harriet, love, magic wishes
I always thought music would be the only thing to get me through it all. I always thought music would always be more important than friends… family… love.
Naw. Music isn’t what my life is completely about. Today was a blow to the senses when I saw Harriet. I told her about my upcoming week and one of the things I mentioned was how I’m going into a studio to record some songs. I threw it out there casually and she was like “Whoa, you are! That’s so exciting!” I merely shrugged it off. Then when things got silent she was just like “I really can’t believe you’re going into a studio! That’s so great!” and I kinda laughed and realized… it. didn’t. matter to me. What mattered to me was being with her. Building a life with her- now that’s fucking something I can get stoked about. But when I found out Appastar wasn’t going on tour? Sure, it’s disappointing. But I didn’t get down about it. I saw it as more time to be with my love. Sure, I’m gonna do soo much musically over spring break… but what is it I’m actually thinking about? Seeing Harriet as much as I can!
Music is my life. It’s still huge, it’s still everything to me. But it just seems that Harriet means even more. At the end of the day what keeps me happier? Harriet’s love. At the end of the day what do I wish for the most?
That I never have to know what it feels like to be without her.
March 24, 2008 at 2:44 pm (friends)
Tags: glenn
The day took a turn for the amazing when Glenn came over.
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Find out why.
Besides the musical aspect, talking to him was great too. Conversation was grand. I enjoy his company to the nth degree.
March 24, 2008 at 10:11 am (Uncategorized)
Ah. Ah. Ah. I don’t like people. The older I get (even on a day-to-day basis), I just can’t stand being in large groups, I can’t stand dealing with others. Yesterday I deleted tons of Facebook friends and my AIM buddylist is down to 40 individuals. I have only 38 friends at Benet Academy under my list on FB. Over 1,000 kids in the whole school and over 300 in my senior class… and I have only 38. I love that, really. I’m just not interested in having this huge world connected to me.
I hate how my day is being dictated by what time Harriet is free. Odds are I’m gonna sit here doing nothing all day because I’m waiting on her. Dad wants to see a movie at 12:30… and I totally can do that. But Harriet has to be at Benet by 3 for her game… so at best I’ll only see her for like, mayybe 30 minutes if I do that. Which is totally worth it, mind you! But I want more time to see her. But then again… who’s to say I’ll even see her? What if her mom ends up keeping her until the last few moments before she leaves for soccer? What if I only get to see her for 30 minutes anyway? Then, uhm, my day has basically been wasted. And I can’t record: workers are here. I can’t write drums for my new song: workers are here. I can’t go out with Joan or Corbett cuz they’re busy.
I don’t know. I’m only as negative as how alone I am. Yesterday was spent entirely by myself, doing nothing. Today is basically the same venture, it seems. I dunno… I’m gonna stop blogging.
All I wanna do is write tihs new song, dammit!
March 23, 2008 at 10:59 am (emotions)
Tags: abuse, bobby, corbett, danielle, debby, fun, harriet, italy, japan, kelsey, love, mrs. zeller, pain, painting, paris, secrets, the olympics, truth, wonder
Part 1:
I’m not a recluse… I just like keeping my world very tiny and very intimate.
Part 2:
Have you ever felt so certain about sometihng even in the face of the greatest uncertainty?
For example, how can you possibly know what’s going to happen in ten years from now… but have you ever sat back and gone, “I can just tell this is exactly what I’m going to be doing,” whatever “this” may be?
That’s how I feel about a certain situation I’m in. I just don’t see my life going in any other direction than one that is in direct accordance with another’s.
Part 3:
Everyone has secrets. Also… everyone has dark secrets. When you hear one of these dark secrets, that generally means you are trusted with great measure… but that dark secret technically has the ability to alter how you look at the person in front of you. So… what should weigh more… the actual secret? Or the fact you’ve been trusted to know? The truth can be so beautiful and magnificent… but sometimes it can be painful and ugly.
I’ve learned a lot this weekend, at the expense of seeing people I love in a different light. For better and for… worse?
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