Alright. I guess I lied! haha… I said that two blogs ago it’d be my last blog for a while, but last night’s new song seemed to warrant one… and now here I am sitting at Panera at 7:45 before class just hanging out. I hate being in the dorm room these days.
So yeah, yesterday was a pretty tough day. Not only did I find myself ridiculously sick, but just so much was eating at me and I really lost it after Oral Expression (which always manages to put me in a bad mood in the first place). I came home and just turned on Nightmare Of You while I lied down and just collapsed for a little bit. Once I gathered myself I set up my recording equipment and found myself writing a really cool new song. I’m not gonna lie- the moments where I feel lowest and most frustrated is when music blossoms out from me the most. Confession was written that way. Submerge was written that way. And I’m sure so many others were, but those are just what I remember at the top of my head. It’s always so interesting too… no matter how shitty I felt, if I ended up writing a great new song, it almost erases everything I had felt previously. Case in point today where now I am taking things very slowly, sipping my coffee even slower.
Today’s going to be a really good day. I always love going to Prod 2- I’m generally just way too tired to handle it… but now that I’ve gotten smart and get coffee beforehand, I’m able to stay totally attentive and it makes for such a better class. I don’t have writing today because I had my conference on Monday, so after Prod 2 my classes are all done! I’ll go home and work on my blink paper, probably, but at least I’ve just got lots of time today to relax and annihilate all the homework I desire. I really want to just get so far ahead of the game and have NOTHING to worry about the last week of school. I’m going to be so focused on Manifest that there’s no chance I’ll really be able to focus. Even right now I’m having the most difficult time staying on task with my school work because I sit here just itching to play some music. I really don’t remember the last time I was SO into music. I mean, like, I’m FINDING new music all the time, I’m writing new songs all the time, I’m playing shows all the time, I’m writing ABOUT music all the time… I’m really enjoying the position in life I’ve found. I feel like more than ever I have a purpose.
Tomorrow’s going to be a really fun day. I was able to set up a Japanese night with some of my Japanese classmates and we’re gonna all get together with some Pat’s pizza, some anime, and be set up for a good time. Then after that it’s off to a midnight showing of X-Men origins with Erik and Joe! Midnight showings are always so much fun. I’ll never forget seeing The Simpsons at midnight nor will I forget seeing the Dark Knight. Hah… going and seeing the Dark Knight… that entire night is definitely on the list of “Best night’s ever.”
Oh! Right. Tonight I have a gig at the Automatic Lofts. It’s an acoustic BOTB, but the grand prize IS a nice $100 or somethin like that. It’s all crowd vote so I’m not sure if we’ll actually stand a chance at winning… But that’d be nice to take home. We got $50 from the UC as “financial compensation” since we didn’t even get to play. That was super nice of them. Emily and Brandy definitely were awe-struck by our audition, I’m glad they were nice enough to help us out at least just a TINY bit with our tour.
We found a trailer! In the last three weeks before tour we acquired our trailer haha. Gotta go up to Milwaukee NEXT weekend to pick it up. That’ll be a fun little day trip. Maybe I’ll get a chance to stop at Sal’s!!! Gah. BEST. pizza. EVER. I think about it daily haha.
Where’s the sunshine, dammit? I’m soo sick of gray skies!! We keep getting teased so bad. ONE day a week it’ll be really nice, then it goes back to rainy, overcast, and cold. It’s almost May and I’m still not wearing shorts. It’s quite the sad story….
I’ve found a great band. They’re called Zebrahead and they’re so snotty and punky, yet entirely melodic. I love their sound so much. It’s perfect So-cal music. It’s such a shame that I can’t stand southern california’s scenery because I love the whole culture down there. There’s always been talk of moving to Nothern Cali with Harriet… I think I would actually really, really love that.
Minus the Bear keeps updating their Twitter with recording updates. They’ve already spent two days in the studio. 
That’s so exciting. And holy crap! I found out Nightmare of You is releasing a new album July 21st! I heard some samples online? GAH. So friggin good. I have to be there first thing in the morning when Best Buy opens to get it. NOY is definitely one of my favoritest bands ever.
Not gonna lie, I keep thinking about sex lately. I think it’s all this pop-punk I’ve been listening to fueling my sex drive. The details of those thoughts are entirely private though. There’s only one person who gets to hear that stuff. 
I’m having a hard time eating lately. I’m just getting so sick of eating the same stuff over and over. I think when I go home for the weekend I’m going to go out of my way to eat exotic stuff so I can just totally refresh my palatte and maybe be okay with eating the cafeteria food and all the other restaurants I frequent so often around here. If there’s one thing in this world I absolutely despise, it’s routine. My gosh do I hate routine. I get so tired of the same stuff so easily. It makes for an exciting life- always, ALWAYS doing things differently… But it’s times like this where it’s slightly frustrating. Nevertheless, you can’t know the good until you know the bad. So I guess a good way of looking at the negative things in my life is to say, “Hey. Without this shit, I can’t appreciate the beauty.”
Alright- time to hit up class! Excuse me while I bring the awesome. Have a great day.
