One of the happiest times of my life was when I was making music with Apollo’s Dream. It wasn’t the most amazing music- it had flaws here and there. But you know what? It was fun to play, it was highly inventive, and it was time spent with two amazing individuals. The writing process involved lots of dicking around with our instruments but ultimately being open to trying anything and everything. Even though I played the drums, I felt like I was invested in the guitar and bass lines and overall structure of the songs- and both John and Glenn I’m sure felt the same about their roles in the band- overseeing every part of it. The vocal-bed I created in the second verse of the Wind Tunnel is one of the coolest things I’ve ever heard musically.
I really was surrounded by the most amazing people when I was Benet. The people I meet these days are so one-track-minded. It’s now all about the goal at hand: school. Everyone’s so focused on their majors and themselves. Or if you meet other musicians, they’re just concerned with getting big. For Apollo’s Dream it was never about getting famous- it was about having fun and being creative because it’s awesome to have fun and express yourself. I’ve gotta get going on my homework, but just felt like sharing a quick thought…
I’m not saying you have to be immature… But why did people decide to grow up so fast when they hit college? We’re still young. We’ve still got time to figure things out. Why can’t we just all do what we love because we love it? instead of trying to find some ultimate goal at the end of the road. That’s why I’m texting John and Glenn now trying to get them to come to my apartment so we can jam- I wanna feel that lightness in music again. I wanna feel that lightness in every part of my life.
I’m gonna go drum now and enjoy it immensely.
p.s.- I begin work on my new album this Sunday.
p.p.s.- i wish so badly i were playing my own music. it is such untapped potential.
whatenergycreates said,
September 24, 2009 at 3:03 pm
I totally understand that whole growing up after you get to college. I’m in the business program, and on top of being the minority because I’m a GIRL in business (haha), I don’t identify with most students there. They all look like they are 30-years old in the way they dress and act, reserved and obsessed with CLASSES, GRAD SCHOOL (already) and LANDING COMPETITIVE INTERNSHIPS. I mean, I’m pumped about the sweet work I’ll do after school, sure, but I hate that everything I do has to somehow “further me” in the career process. Having a good time exploring life doesn’t make me less driven. Likewise, the art and volunteering I do is just because I love it; I don’t understand why that’s not enough for some people when I explain that.