September 23, 2009 at 2:28 pm (apollo's dream)
Tags: apollo's dream, glenn, john, music
One of the happiest times of my life was when I was making music with Apollo’s Dream. It wasn’t the most amazing music- it had flaws here and there. But you know what? It was fun to play, it was highly inventive, and it was time spent with two amazing individuals. The writing process involved lots of dicking around with our instruments but ultimately being open to trying anything and everything. Even though I played the drums, I felt like I was invested in the guitar and bass lines and overall structure of the songs- and both John and Glenn I’m sure felt the same about their roles in the band- overseeing every part of it. The vocal-bed I created in the second verse of the Wind Tunnel is one of the coolest things I’ve ever heard musically.
I really was surrounded by the most amazing people when I was Benet. The people I meet these days are so one-track-minded. It’s now all about the goal at hand: school. Everyone’s so focused on their majors and themselves. Or if you meet other musicians, they’re just concerned with getting big. For Apollo’s Dream it was never about getting famous- it was about having fun and being creative because it’s awesome to have fun and express yourself. I’ve gotta get going on my homework, but just felt like sharing a quick thought…
I’m not saying you have to be immature… But why did people decide to grow up so fast when they hit college? We’re still young. We’ve still got time to figure things out. Why can’t we just all do what we love because we love it? instead of trying to find some ultimate goal at the end of the road. That’s why I’m texting John and Glenn now trying to get them to come to my apartment so we can jam- I wanna feel that lightness in music again. I wanna feel that lightness in every part of my life.
I’m gonna go drum now and enjoy it immensely.
p.s.- I begin work on my new album this Sunday.
p.p.s.- i wish so badly i were playing my own music. it is such untapped potential.
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March 16, 2009 at 8:50 am (life)
Tags: gabi, glenn, guitar, joan, john, life, movies, plays, renee, sushi
Wow… so. What a weekend. Here’s the shorthand of what I did: went sushi hopping, saw Tokyo!, saw Eternal Sunshine at midnight on the big screen, went to a taco bell at 2AM where it was jampacked with drunk people, played music all day, went on a journey for chinese food, saw the Screwtape Letters, went out for another nice sushi dinner, got slapped in the face, had great conversations with people I adore, and ultimately got my groove back.
I’ve got so much planned to for.. who knows how long. My life doesn’t stop and it’s the way I’ve always enjoyed it. 
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January 7, 2009 at 3:41 am (life)
Tags: blisters, children, dad, drums, family, glenn, harriet, isabelle, love, sacrifice, work
It’s 3:30AM.
I need to be sleeping, but I woke up feeling so shitty and I needed to detox with an ice cold glass of juicy juice (diluted with water- makes for a very nice experience). For some reason my mouth was so dry and tasted like poo and my shitty diet for the day wasn’t helping me. So here I am, writing a bit just to wear me down so I’ll go back to sleep shortly. I’m tired- just a bit stimulated from walking around for a bit a few minutes ago.
I have a great idea for a story I want to write at some point.
I don’t know what I’m going to do today… but I know I gotta go return Pineapple Express, see what the deal with Ghost Town is, go to Circuit City, and go to salvation army? I’m dying to drum. I got my new kick drum head and it sounds like puuuure gravy! With just a few twists of the knob I can make it sound deep as balls. Or if I tweak it right I can make it sound just perfect for my set- trebly enough to be pleasing, deep enough to sound full.
I want to keep hanging with Glenn. I’m enjoying his company severely- I just hope he feels the same way.
My week with Harriet has humbled me quite a bit. Knowing now more than ever that we have what it takes to not only live together, but honestly thrive and be incredibly happy together with only each other has made me see us differently. I see us as so much stronger and more fulfilling than ever (and we were already perfect in those departments). Her leaving has crushed me. It’s hurt more than anything I can think of. Trying to maintain being happy is taking all I’ve got. I’m doing it!- it’s just taking a huge load of energy and effort.
My dad made a video last night about me that was a collage of many many old videos I’d never seen before. My first thoughts upon seeing them were how Harriet would be having the biggest smile across her face if she were to be in the same room watching with me. When I saw the adorable picture of Isabelle on my fridge (you know, the classy ones people take at classy photo centers?), it made me melt and I wanted to call Harriet up right away and tell her, “Just so you know… I can’t wait to have a child with you.”
The blisters on my hand hurt so bad.
Opening my door leaves a stinging feeling in my palms they’re so worn.
I heard dad moving around a few minutes ago… he’s already in the shower. He’s leaving for work in about thirty minutes. Every time he comes home and plops himself in bed, in front of the t.v. is well-deserved in my opinion. That man is allowed to crash at night if he so chooses. I admit though- he doesn’t sleep much- I’m not sure if getting up this early is that big of a chore or issue for him. If I had a wonderful family to provide for, I know I’d make any sort of sacrifice and give all the effort I could.
I guess I’ll attempt sleep now.
Goodnight, light.
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June 1, 2008 at 6:58 am (emotions)
Tags: allen, chris, columbia, friendships, glenn, graduation, harriet, joan, love, red robin, school, the white chocolate grill, tim, zeph
Alright, here it is. My final blog for a long time. I’m not interested in documenting my summer- I’m interested in living it. One thing I realized yesterday was how jampacked every day is that I have. When I got home from a day with Harriet I kinda stood around for a few minutes thinking, “Wow, I feel like I did nothing today…” But then when I went back and thought about it, her and I accomplished so much: we went joyriding with all the windows down, we went to Maxwell’s, we went to an Asian market and bought vanilla mochi, we went to a park and got ice cream all over each other and wrote a card, then went for a walk, then sat on the nicest bench with the greatest view ever while the wind blew sweetly around us, then we went to a grad party where we were the center of attention a lot of the time and where I met a kid named luke, and dominated in volleyball with a guy named Dan, and then we went to Dave’s grad party where we attempted to solve dj’s love problems and we yet again were pretty much at the center of things. That was what we did from 12:45-8:05. In less than 8 hours all that got accomplished. Yet when I got home I’d like, forgotten all that happened, because it all just meshed together. All I could really comprehend was that I had a great day. And that’s how every day is with her. I don’t realize how amazing it is until I get the chance to sit down and think about it… because there’s so much! And instead of rationalizing all I do and sorting it all out with a blog, I’m just gonna say fuck it and keep living life.
Summer officially starts today after graduation. I’m not very interested in going and I’m actually gonna talk my parents out of taking me to the White Chocolate Grill, cuz I’d honestly rather go to Red Robin. I’m just not interested in luxurious things. With electronics? Yeah. I like the best of the best. But that’s the only thing I enjoy spending money on. I actually hate spending a lot of money on food: I just enjoy paying for quality food… not mcdonald’s and shit. But the White Chocolate Grill is one of those places that is just overly expensive and I have no interest in that. I don’t have an interest in expensive clothes. I don’t see the point in expensive furniture. I won’t buy expensive music cds or dvds. But hey, back to my point about not wanting to go to graduation or dinner: I’ve got no desire in all these formal gatherings. More than anything I’d rather just go off and do something with Harriet. We haven’t made love in two days: that’d be fun. We haven’t just sat back and relaxed since Tuesday, that’d be fun too. Bah, I just want to be with her. Friday was the perfect day: I got to hang with Appastar AND have Harriet by my side AND play a show.
I don’t usually like doing things with other people. I only want to be with Harriet. But that’s because I guess I really have no interest in hanging with the people from Benet. The only person I enjoy being with immensely is Glenn and he’s never available for me. But like, I have no problem spending a day with Appastar- Allen, Tim, Chris, and Zeph. I don’t feel like I’m being cheated out of not seeing Harriet: I feel like I’m having a fantastic time and Harriet is given a chance to do whatever she wants to do. Granted, I always want her with me… so that’s what’s great about appastar: they’re all cool that she joins up with us anyways! Then I love hanging with Will: but he’s so hard to get a hold of. But yeah. Graduating from benet: guess it doesn’t mean too much to me because… no one there means that much. I’ve got some great friends and they’ve helped get me through one or all of the years at Benet… but I never made any truly lasting relationships. When I hear the phrase “lasting friendship” I think of two people: Glenn and Joan. I just don’t know about anyone else.
I’m not sure if I want to go to columbia anymore. I was so excited about it until two things happen: a) I fell so deeply in love with Harriet and b) appastar became whole. Now I’d give anything to jsut play music and be with Harriet down in new orleans. But hey. Whatever, can’t have everything. Or… can i?
I’m done writing.
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March 24, 2008 at 2:44 pm (friends)
Tags: glenn
The day took a turn for the amazing when Glenn came over.
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Find out why.
Besides the musical aspect, talking to him was great too. Conversation was grand. I enjoy his company to the nth degree.
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