September 18, 2008 at 11:04 am (emotions)
Tags: appastar, life, music, par-t-rex, RTA
Well shit it’s been a long time! Since my last update loads and loads and LOADS of stuff has happened. Am I gonna explain it all? Psh, doubtful! I dunno, blogging’s not really my thing anymore. I haven’t got the time to do so. I rarely go on AIM.. in fact, I just don’t go on AIM. I don’t use xanga or here or myspace. I barely use Facebook… I really am just so preoccupied with other stuff that the online communication realm just doesn’t interest me. It’s mostly because if I’m not sitting here on Skype with Harriet, I’m out doing something else or I’m recording or I’m doing homework. The actual time to sit down and want to blog or do anything on the internet just isn’t there (nor is the desire). But enough about tha.t..
I’m only blogging here today because I’ve got time to kill (I would utilize my time to watch one of my netflix movies, but the xbox is GONE! daniel took it to someoen else’s room. it’s kinda pissing me off because i want it here.. it is MINE… but whatever). Hah.. yeah. I’ve got an hour to kill. Yay.
But anyways. What to say…
Appastar is broken up. I said goodbye then watched as the domino effect befell the band with us dismembering completely. I thought all was fine though- I quit Appastar mostly because I wanted to do Par-T-Rex with mike and Chris AND so I could focus on RTA if Appa wasn’t gonna go anywhere… but thenlast night I got kicked out of Mike’s band because I’m in RTA and I need to “stick to one band” which is total bullshit. I held down Apollos Dream, Appastar, and RTA all at once and all of them flourished incredibly. While in all these bands RTA became what it is today… Apollo’s Dream produced a fucking amazing album and played a nice handful of shows… and Appastar reached its apex, for sure. Now Appastar’s gone, I’m told I can’t be in Par-T-Rex, and I’m left with only RTA. I’m honestly a bit pissed right now because that’s what I wanna fucking DO with my life. I wanna play so much music yet I’m being told I can’t handle it by people who aren’t even in bands at the moment… THey’re stuck in limbo talking about being a band. Whatever. If they don’t want me, they don’t have to have me. I’ll just put even more effort into RTA.
Mmm.. whatever. Fuck this, I’ma go.
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September 2, 2008 at 7:33 am (emotions)
Tags: classes, columbia college, harriet, love, new orleans, Romancing The Angels, RTA, trips
Two days ago I hit a super low point. I was being just… absolutely stupid in every way; from saying things I shouldn’t be saying, to not believing in my own worth, to feeling downright exhausted and sick. It really wasn’t a good day and I look back on it already and honestly regret feeling that way. But as always, I emerge from those ashes like a phoenix and come back to kick major ass. And right now I’m just on a new level of greatness. Yesterday was RTA practice with Tim (hopefully with Natalie today??), I had great conversation with Harriet, I cut my hair a bit so it looks much nicer (makes me feel better about myself), I’m working out a lot and looking great, I was eating properly yesterday: I dunno it was just good. And I feel a ton better right now. After having RTA practice and hearing things be so tight… ugh. The future looks bright for us. It truly, truly does. And then my acoustic version of sunkisses?? Yes, RTA is doing incredibly well.
And I dunno, the hurricane passed over New Orleans with minimal damage and that just made a world of a difference in my mood. To even think that Harriet might have had to leave Tulane for a while, lose all of her belongings there, AND our trip wouldda been cancelled was just terrible to me. There was the idea she might come up here for school then until she went back… but still. That didn’t matter to me. Harriet’s happy in New Orleans! I want her to stay happy… I really do want what’s best for her. Fuck it if she’s up here and can see me every day… I’d rather her be somewhere where she’s truly happy and content with everything. I told all that to DJ. It made me feel good when his response was, “Fuck dude. You are so in love with her.” I responded, “What makes you say that?” “You really do put her way before your own needs.”
So Harriet gets to go back Sunday.. and our trip is still on. I cannot wait to see my love. I just cannot wait.
So, today’s the first day of classes! From 9-10:20.. that’s all I have to do haha. I must admit… columbia won’t be an eaaasy school… because I’m going to put so much effort forth… but it will be low-stress… and I owe that all to Benet. It’s a lot of detail I don’t feel like going into… but truth be fuckin told, I’m going to love it here at Columbia. I can just feel it. I just can’t wait for time to pass. I wanna get all my gen-eds just out of the way. I’ve decided that’s what I’d really like to do. I know a lot of people gotta decide: get them all done with… mix them into their four years… wait to really do them… I just want ‘em out of the way. The more of them I get done, the more classes in my major I can take… or my minor for that matter. I have no desire to focus on my minor at this point because I’m just so focused on other stuff. I like to put all I’ve got into something… and I don’t want to divide myself in 3 for my major, my gen-eds, and my minor. I’d rather do everything perfectly. Well.. that’s sort of a lie. I’m not too worried about my gen-eds… I can put forth 50% effort andbe okay, I think. But it’s my major I really do want to give it 100%. It’s been a long time since I’ve done that… but I think I can do it. If anything it’ll take me just a couple of weeks to get my shit together. But I know I can handle it. I’m too fucking determined.
But okay… it’s about time to go to class.
Writing and Rhetoric 1. See you later.
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August 14, 2008 at 10:56 pm (life)
Tags: $4.50, dj, dominick's, gelato, harriet, jomf, life, music, RTA, sam ash
Life is crazy right now. Absolutely crazy right now. I want to blog, but I just can’t find words. Too much to say, too much to tell. The one story I’ve been meaning to tell Harriet since Saturday but keep forgetting sounds like a good one to put down though… maybe she’ll read this and then I’ll have to stop worrying about forgetting to tell you. But in any case… when I was at Sam Ash checking out amps, one of the store clerks was digging my music that I was playing. Whether he thought it to be original or cover stuff, he still digged what he was hearing. So that was special.
Also special: my infautation with gelato.
Even more special: my lover in texas whom I can’t stop texting/calling/thinking about. Boy do I love her!
JOOOOOMFFFFF!!!
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July 7, 2008 at 10:41 pm (emotions)
Tags: california, harriet, music, pablo, people, phone calls, Romancing The Angels, RTA, skadoosh, steal the sky, texting
So I’m in california. Been so since last Thursday. I had no desire to post any blogs while I was away… didn’t even want to now! But shit, I’m just so bored and had some thoughts I wanted to share. First of all: gosh I love the people who don’t live in Chicago. I’m talkin about Jimmy, Adam, Tayler, Vicky. They’re just awesome people who love talking to me so much and I love talkin to them. Vicky called me today and hearing her voice was just awesome. I love that girl so much. And Tayler and I were textin for a bit… she makes me smile hardcore. And Jimmy of course always lets be an asshole and I enjoy that. And Adam always makes me feel good about myself. The sad part is I never see these people… even though they’re some of the closest people to my heart.
Here are the people I miss from Chicago, officially: DJ, Mike, Holly, Natalie, Judd, and Harriet. From texts to different people and a few phone calls, its those people who have made me happiest while away. DJ’s texts make me laugh so hard… and out of the blue Holly was able to have a conversation with me… and Natalie was scheming with me to go see The Honorary Title… and Mike has been checkin up on me… I dunno. When you’re away you see who means the most to you. Yeah, yeah, I’m missin some people… but these are the people who’ve left the biggest impact on me while being away. The people who have bothered to keep me company, the ones willing to say, “I miss you” and “How’s Cali?”
I’m tired of this trip though. It’s killing me for a bunch of different reasons… but the one that’s most painful is being away from Harriet. Yeah, yeah, you can say, “But uve gotta be away from each other for college!” THat’s different. I’m okay with that. This is a vacation I don’t wanna be on during our time we’re supposed to be together. It hurts. When we have to go to college, that’s unavoidable. THat’s okay- we’re both working towards better worlds for each other. Better worlds for us to share together. But this? THere’s no benefit in this (or is there? I’ll explain soon!). I’m just yearning for so much of her love and want to kiss her and hold her and blah blah blah. I want to love her and I want her to love me. We’ve been keeping our sanity by watching movies together at night. WAtched My Big Fat Greek Wedding and Hitch so far. Doing the Fountain tonight.
Hey! Speaking of movies… I watched the Mist last night with Rudy. Fuckin. Good. Movie. You must see it. That’s all I’ll say. And I’ve been re-watching RahXephon. That show is fuckin baller, too. The voice acting is a bit overdramatic at times and the plot a bit hard to follow and the music can be lame… But the overall experience is just phenomenal. I’m on disc 5 of 7. 3, 4, 3. That’s the number of eps on each. Should be able to finish before I go home.
But yeah. MAybe this trip wasn’t all for nothing… I gave out quite a few cds with still more time to distribute… But I met this kid named Pablo. And to put it short: he loves my music and wants to see me get famous. So he’s my official West Coast rep and is gonna spread the word about me hardcore. I could go into so much detail but just dont feel like it. Point is he makes me so damn happy about my music. He’s so in love with Save Me, One More Time, and the Ballad of Johnny Nova. Fuck yeah. And yeah. This trip has been good for Harriet and I too… the distance for a few days has probably made us a lot stronger. But this five day bullshit is hurting like hell. It needs to stop.
Hm. I’m done talking. I guess all I wanna end with is how I didn’t mention Harriet enough in this blog. She’s all I’ve been thinking about and I’m uh.. miserable without her. We’ve been texting incessently and when we talk on the phone its hard to hang up. I dunno. I dont wanna talk about it much. I just want the distance to ennnnnnnnd!
Okay. Skadoosh!
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March 8, 2008 at 7:34 am (Uncategorized)
Tags: coldplay, dad, harriet, little girls, making love, maximum the hormone, Romancing The Angels, RTA, steak n shake, the fork
Harriet and I walked into a party last night… and left within 10 minutes because were genuinely having a better time just in my car blasting Maximum the Hormone.
Last night was straight up groovy.
And now I’m listening to RTA songs, trying to make a mix for my dad of all the new stuff I’ve written.
This weekend is gonna be schwingin’.
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