The Honorary Title Acoustic Show

Tonight I went to see Look Mexico, Cory Branan, Good Old War, and the Honorary Title at Reggie’s Rock House.  I have been thinking about this blog all night and how I’m going to write it.  I’ve been pouring over my thoughts trying to decide what angle to take on describing this concert because it was so amazing and I just have to write a review of it for the world + give myself complete documentation of such a remarkable night.  Having said that, I don’t know how to do this.  I’m going to have to dive right in and hope I do myself and the concert justice.

As I walked from the Cerkmak-Chinatown redline stop to Reggie’s, I was a bit worried.  It’s not the best part of town- you’re talkin reaaaal south loop of Chicago where I’ve been badly hassled before.  Despite my slight fears I walked the half mile or so to Reggie’s and found myself waiting in a short line to get in.  Upon walking through the doors and being surrounded by like-minded indie rock fans, there was a merch table I checked out.  I was just minding my own business, walking by the rows of t-shirts and cds when a guy from behind the table goes, “Has anyone ever told you you look just like…”  Yes.  You knew this had to happen.  With the space in between his words I filled in his thoughts, “Like Shia Labeouf and or Michael Cera?”  ”That’s it!!”  And thus started my conversation with Keith, the singer/guitarist/bassist/keyboardist, for the Good Old War.  We talked about how he also gets the “You look like the guy from Its always sunny in philadelphia” comment and we shared ideals on how we wish we could just be seen as unique sexy devils.  This was one of my favorite parts of the night: he told me how he’d just gotten married two weeks before the band left on tour and how he can’t wait to get home to his brand new wife.  I was so happy for him and I hope my wide smile proved it.  I asked him all about what it’s like being away from her/how he’s stoked to go home to her.  I saw so much of myself in him after that.  So obviously that was a great, great start to a concert and even though I knew nothing of GOW, I was now totally prepared to give them my full attention during their set.  More on that later.

Promptly at 7:30, Look Mexico took the stage and they fucking rocked it.  They were this great popversion of Explosions in the Sky that just commanded me through their whole set.  When they said it was their “last song” I was admittedly disappointed for once in my life.  The ethereal and highly heart-pounding instrumental they performed was stunning, leaving me nothing but captivated for the whole 4-5 minute duration and then their ending song with the trumpet-intro/extending outro had me craving more.  After the show I caught up with their bassist and rapped with him for a bit.  We talked about bass-gear/amplifiers and when I said I wanted a t-shirt he said, “No, you NEED this, man.”  He was a really nice guy and when I bought some merch later and tipped him, he was so gracious.  ”Keep the change, man.”  ”Dude, no way.  Ic an’t do that.”  ”Please, I’ve been on tour… I know what it’s like… just take it.”  His appreciation thereafter was so sincere and it made me really happy to support them like I did.  Plus, after the show/buying their merch I started chatting with Matt, the guitarist/singer, and we had a nice talk about tour, Vin Diesel, and being generally awesome.  Also a supremely nice guy whom I’m glad I met.  You can bet I’ll try and catch them when they’re back around.

Next on the bill was Cory Branan.  This country-pop-singer was a riot.  He was so fucking energetic and just HAPPY to be on stage.  You knew there was not a single other place in the world he wanted to be.  It just showed on his face and you know what?  It showed on the Audience’s faces as well.  That was probably one of my favorite parts of this concert: everyone wanted to be there.  The performers, the audience- everyone was ready to have a good time and everyone totally had to.  Cory’s not my style of music, but he was a blast to watch and when he left the stage, I was completely satisfied and knew I was only halfway through one of the best concerts I’d ever go to.  The man’s lyrics are just a blast- look up As Tall As Grass and The Prettiest Waitress In Memphis.  Just read the words- they might just make ya smile.

After him was the Good Old War.  Now, I’m starting to lose writing steam, so I’m gonna try my best to give these guys my sincerest honors.  First of all- whoever the guitarist was- he looked so goddamn happy to be there.  Again- you knew there was nothing else that could make him happier.  Seeing that genuine joy strike his face when he sang and played was infectious and it made you want to love their music so hard even if you’d never heard it before.  Then there was Keith who rocked so hardcore and had great stage presence.  He’s seriously like a goofier, more confident Jason Schwarzman.  Looks a lot like him too!  Just with beady eyes.  I loved his stage antics and when he talked about trying to be like James Brown and mentioned all “the sexy ladies in the house” I couldn’t help but just fall in love with this man’s charisma.  Then there was Tim, the drummer.  I gotta say- can’t stand him.  I thought he was annoying.  But I won’t deny his supremely amazing skillset.  The man can drum and sing phenomenally.  One of the most fun parts of GOWs set was when they brought it down into the audience, formed a circle, and played.  For me, it was really whatevs.  But for the people who were there to SEE GOW?  They were on Cloud9 and just seeing such happiness be created made for such a wonderful vibe and I wanted to be there for it.  I was feeling great just being surrounded by people who couldn’t be having a better time watching one of their favorite bands dance and sing and play RIGHt in front of them…
After the show I talked to Tim and was like, “Do you know where Keith is?”  Dude calls Keith up and says, “There’s someone who wants to see you- stop being a jerk and get up here.”  It took Keith a while to get there, so I went and talked to Jarrod real quickly and on my way out I saw him at the merch booth.  ”Keithhhh- excellent work tonight, man.”  I ended up telling him I definitely bought their cd, wished him and Tim good luck on tour, and then wished him alone good luck with the “new arrangement at home.”  Truly nice guys.  Truly glad I met them.

Then last but not the least… The Honorary Title took to the stage.  It was just Jarrod and “Dustin”, some ill-tempered pianist fuck from the East Coast (his skinny physique and slicked back black hair couldn’t scream it more), but what transpired thereafter was magical (as if the night already wasn’t filled with incredible music).
While getting everything set up, I noticed Jarrod was calm and slow-moving.  It was cool watching him.  A string even broke on one of his guitars during a tune-up and he didn’t even react.  If that happened to me (or anyone else I know for that matter) I would have been pissed and been like, “You cannot be SERIOUS?!”  But no.. Jarrod didn’t even make a face and just went to the back of the stage, put a new one on casually, and went back to tuning.  Finally when things were ready he started the set with Frame by Frame and we were all off and running.
The first few songs were solely acoustic: Frame by Frame, Thin Layer, Cut Short, Far More, and Only One Week.  Oh my GOSH.  Only One Week was phenomeeeenalllll acoustic.  It was seriously one of the highlights of the night.  And actually when Cory came on to sing the harmony with Jarrod for Far More- that was so sick.  So happy they did that as the harmony on that tune is one of the best parts…  Then something breathtaking happened.  Halfway through Untouched and Intact, acoustic, Good Old War joins the stage and a full band version and finishes it off.  I fucking freaked when this happened.  The show took on a whole new dynamic and it was seriously one of the most solid, most entertaining performances I’ve ever witnessed.  Jarrod thanked GOW for “giving THT testicles.”  Hearing upbeat, acoustic, full band renditions of Bridge and Tunnel and Untouched and Intact was stellar.  But the real surprise/joy came from hearing brand new songs in this fashion.  They were fuckin gooood, too.  I didn’t want that part of the show to stop.  Then the band left and Revealing Too Much, Stay Away, Petals, and Everything I Onced Had closed the show acoustically.  Stay Away was stunning and it’s the one that keeps replaying in my head.

As I left the show there was only one thing I could do: sing Stay Away and smile.  I was so happy after the concert- and I still am.  Afterwards I went to Seven Treasures and just contemplated everything, thinking about how I was going to write this blog, and just turning over and over in my head, “Tonight was amazing.  Tonight was amazing…”  Random awesomeness that occurred: I found a one dollar bill on the ground walking back to the CTA and my server at Seven Treasures gave me extra food since I had to “wait too long.”  Right now I’m so inspired and it’s part because of what I just saw, part because of Keith’s mini-current-life-story.  When I saw Jarrod up on stage performing his own personal songs, it occurred to me that that should be ME.  I should really be giving my tunes the time of day they deserve.  Hell, he started out as just a guitarist and a drummer- why the fuck can’t I?  I don’t need a huge full band, do I?  And then hearing Keith tell me about how he just got married and is on tour while his wife holds down a super hectic job- that totally can be me too!  Because if there was one theme that just kept playing out in every way tonight, it was that everyone was happy.  Everybody was so happy.  Shit, I got so lost in the Honorary Title’s set.  in fact, I was at Reggie’s for 4 and 1/2 hours and I didn’t even know it until I’d thought about it while waiting for my food.

Right now?  I am so happy.  All I want to do now is go to sleep and let these beautiful memories just settle in and never be forgotten.  And in all honesty?  This is a great write-up.  I did what I wanted.  This night is written in stone (figuratively). :-)

There’s only one regret about tonight- but there’s no reason to focus on the one bad thing when everything else not only went wonderfully- it went perfectly.  I couldn’t have asked for much more from tonight.

The Honorary Title is hugely solidified as one of the top bands in my heart.

Booya!!

EDIT: it’s come to my attention that the full-band aural onslaught that occurred last night was unique to the Chicago show. ohh myy goosh!  I’ve decided I’d rather see that show again than the blink concert.  Yes.  I just said that.  And I totally mean it.

First Real Blog In… well, Ages.

I’m pretty stinkin’ tired.  All I want to do is keep sleeeeeping!  I don’t want to go to work or do anything significant like that.  I either want to get back into bed sleep?  Or have my baby come online and we can talk for a while.  I didn’t sleep very well at all last night.  I was so thirsty and had no relief and it got too warm because you can’t really turn on the A/C right now during winter (cold air just won’t come out!) and in the end I just didn’t get that great of sleep.

The battery to my mac came yesterday!  It finally charges now!  YAY!  During the flight to New Orleans I plan to get a lot of Harriet’s gift out of the way.  I haven’t been working on it at all and I fear I won’t come even close to finishing it since I’ve slacked off thus far.

This week is going to be a freaking busy one.

I’ve got quite the essay to write up for writing class… I’ve got a big ‘ol quiz monday… I’ve got to send back my old, defunct battery to apple… I’ve got to indulge in Shin Megami Tensei… I have to workout… I’m gonna have to start working on my new millennium studies creative project four…  It doesn’t look like much, but a lot of it’s going to be very time consuming (I’m looking at you Creative project) and I have to somehow get it all done before Thursday (or cram like hell on sunday evening and monday morning).  Oh. right.  I’ve got my into to audio final next monday too: I’m gonna need to study HARDcore for that.  And that means I’ve probably also got my production final next week too!  Yes.  I am a busy boy.  But that’s okay.

I looove the new set-up in my room.  I got rid of a lot of unnecessary stuff and brought in a few necessary things.  Despite the broken christmas lights on my floor, my space looks a lot cleaner because of it.  I’ve got my ps2 and t.v. on my desk now- organized perfectly.  The beautiful massing of stuff on my desk feels very homely.  It feels like tihs is truly MY space.  I could sit in this one little area and be completely happy no matter what- kinda like how my room was at home.  I’d always designed it so that I never had to leave that room if I didn’t want to.  Not because I’m a hermit or anything- those closest to me know I’m CLEARLY not that.  But it’s just like.. it’s my room!  My room is my kingdom.  I want it to always be awesome and feel so safe.  My dorm felt very… empty for a while.  Now it feels full!  I really really like my desk the way it is now because it radiates comfort.  I dunno- my thoughts on this I feel are coming out weirdly.  

I’ve realllly got to get going to work… but I just can’t find it in me to actually get up and leave.  I’m terrified of going to work.  I just DON’T want to go!  I’m also terrified of spending money.  I spent too much money this weekend and am going to have to keep spending money- I need water and shampoo!

BTW- I used this shampoo by Aussie for wavy hair?  Wooow did it do wonders!  My hair is so easily affected by different shampoos.  Like, when I used my pantene today?  It makes my hair so soft that it eventually curls a bit.  But the Aussie stuff was being mega cool and makingmy hair.. well.. kinda wavy!  And it was groovy as hell.  So I really want to go buy that.  And I think the dryness of my face is gone?  Hoorayness.  I gotta keep lotioning my body- not only so Harriet can have a smooth body to sleep next to and touch- but I gotta admit- those legs of mine are just tooo gross and dry looking.  Once they’re moisturized though they look just fine.  So I have to keep that up.

Anyways- before I leave for work I think I want to listen to the songs I recorded yesterday.  Hear how they’re shaping up.  I’ve been rushing too much to record them- I have yet to truly listen and I’m convinced they sound kinda crappy… but I think that’s just because I haven’t listened to them properly yet.  My timing was kinda off too with the drums.  The songs I recorded are a tad bit slower than usual and I kept rushing- kept wanting to go faster!  But I couldn’t!  So sometimes I did and if fucked things up.  

I really don’t like my vox amp for recording.  Last night I was super tired and was having a hard time doing ANYTHING… so hopefully today will be a better day for recording.  Well.. semi take that back.  I don’t think I’ll be doing any recording… I’ve got such a stupidly busy day.

First it’s work.  Then meet with allen to discuss our friendship.  Then hang with Tim to play musicks and catch up.  THen when I come home?  Work out.  Need to study.  Start paper.  And come on- I’m going to definitely have to take some time out for myself as well and just… enjoy some Nocturne or talk to Harriet.

I dunnoo.  Busy day.  Kinda wish it weren’t.  Wish I had more time for myself.  But whaaaatevs.  It be cool.  Okay, off I go.

BYE.

Di di di

Alright, here it is. My final blog for a long time. I’m not interested in documenting my summer- I’m interested in living it. One thing I realized yesterday was how jampacked every day is that I have. When I got home from a day with Harriet I kinda stood around for a few minutes thinking, “Wow, I feel like I did nothing today…” But then when I went back and thought about it, her and I accomplished so much: we went joyriding with all the windows down, we went to Maxwell’s, we went to an Asian market and bought vanilla mochi, we went to a park and got ice cream all over each other and wrote a card, then went for a walk, then sat on the nicest bench with the greatest view ever while the wind blew sweetly around us, then we went to a grad party where we were the center of attention a lot of the time and where I met a kid named luke, and dominated in volleyball with a guy named Dan, and then we went to Dave’s grad party where we attempted to solve dj’s love problems and we yet again were pretty much at the center of things. That was what we did from 12:45-8:05. In less than 8 hours all that got accomplished. Yet when I got home I’d like, forgotten all that happened, because it all just meshed together. All I could really comprehend was that I had a great day. And that’s how every day is with her. I don’t realize how amazing it is until I get the chance to sit down and think about it… because there’s so much! And instead of rationalizing all I do and sorting it all out with a blog, I’m just gonna say fuck it and keep living life.

Summer officially starts today after graduation. I’m not very interested in going and I’m actually gonna talk my parents out of taking me to the White Chocolate Grill, cuz I’d honestly rather go to Red Robin. I’m just not interested in luxurious things. With electronics? Yeah. I like the best of the best. But that’s the only thing I enjoy spending money on. I actually hate spending a lot of money on food: I just enjoy paying for quality food… not mcdonald’s and shit. But the White Chocolate Grill is one of those places that is just overly expensive and I have no interest in that. I don’t have an interest in expensive clothes. I don’t see the point in expensive furniture. I won’t buy expensive music cds or dvds. But hey, back to my point about not wanting to go to graduation or dinner: I’ve got no desire in all these formal gatherings. More than anything I’d rather just go off and do something with Harriet. We haven’t made love in two days: that’d be fun. We haven’t just sat back and relaxed since Tuesday, that’d be fun too. Bah, I just want to be with her. Friday was the perfect day: I got to hang with Appastar AND have Harriet by my side AND play a show.

I don’t usually like doing things with other people. I only want to be with Harriet. But that’s because I guess I really have no interest in hanging with the people from Benet. The only person I enjoy being with immensely is Glenn and he’s never available for me. But like, I have no problem spending a day with Appastar- Allen, Tim, Chris, and Zeph. I don’t feel like I’m being cheated out of not seeing Harriet: I feel like I’m having a fantastic time and Harriet is given a chance to do whatever she wants to do. Granted, I always want her with me… so that’s what’s great about appastar: they’re all cool that she joins up with us anyways! Then I love hanging with Will: but he’s so hard to get a hold of. But yeah. Graduating from benet: guess it doesn’t mean too much to me because… no one there means that much. I’ve got some great friends and they’ve helped get me through one or all of the years at Benet… but I never made any truly lasting relationships. When I hear the phrase “lasting friendship” I think of two people: Glenn and Joan. I just don’t know about anyone else.

I’m not sure if I want to go to columbia anymore. I was so excited about it until two things happen: a) I fell so deeply in love with Harriet and b) appastar became whole. Now I’d give anything to jsut play music and be with Harriet down in new orleans. But hey. Whatever, can’t have everything. Or… can i?

I’m done writing.

Two paragraphs.

My mind is absolutely teeming with thoughts, ideas, feelings.  It’s hard balancing it all.  Not to mention my allergies have been going haywire… so… life has been difficult lately. 

Let’s see if I can make sense of all my thoughts the past few days:
I got kicked out of creative writing for a bullshit reason.  I read a book that was “inappropriate” and thus I became the bastard child everyone at Benet now believes me to be.  But consequently I was a runner-up in a Mother’s Club essay contest about “Who is my hero?”  While everyone undoubetdly wrote about their mothers, I wrote about Thomas Delonge.  A musical nobody to these mothers grading the papers and I still managed to get “runner-up.”  Not fucking bad, if you ask me.  I also wrote that paper in about twenty minutes.  I also learned I have a massive ego.  I knew that already… but really… it’s huge.  I have to do a group project in Cinema that I don’t think I’m going to survive.  Harriet told me she’s probably going to Tulane for college.  Cue a thousand handsome guys with washboard abs who’d she’d probably rather date.  That’s not the reality, that’s my paranoia.  I have no self-worth.  I’d like to develop some.  Appastar truly are wonderful friends.  I wish I saw them so much more…  Even Pat and Judd for that matter.  allen and I bonded yesterday like we haven’t bonded in a while.  We just don’t have the time.  He gave me some insights I took to heart: “When I see you guys the true love is obvious.”  Speaking of…  Harriet’s at Tulane right now… and her cell phone got taken away, so I can’t talk to her at all.  It’s killer.  I wasn’t prepared for that.  School is so lonely without her.  I see her every period.  I want to see her every period.  I’m just being greedy.  Dance, Dance, Dance is almost done.  I’m so intriuged as to how it’s all going to end.  Such a good book…  I need to finish watching Mushi-shi so I can get more movies.  9 Souls is next on my list.  Hooray for Japanese cinema.  I’ve also got the 2001: A Space Odyssey soundtrack coming in the mail soon and BLKTOP Project.  They’re a japanese jazz group.  Totally great.  I got a haircut.  I happen to like it.  Short… but perfect.  It’ll grow out nicely for prom… and that was the main reason for getting it.  I feel like I’m getting really flabby.  Maybe I’m just overanalyzing it… but I’d like to cut down on my eating for a week… get back to normal.  Cuz it’s not like I don’t exercise… so I feel like maybe I’m eating a bit too much…  or I’m just not giving myself enough time to recover from indulgence to indulgence.  Indulgence.  Fuck, why don’t I know restraint?  religion, religion, religion… what does it mean to me?  God, I love you.  But… what else is there?  I don’t like mass, the Bible is boring, I adhere to my own rules (although most of your rules follow in with mine), and I don’t pray to anyone else besides you.  Is this okay?  I had an amazing dream last night.  It had everything I could ever ask for in it.  Except, having sex on iron bars?  Okay, that part was a little difficult to get through.  The mattress was thrown off in a fit of passion and the iron bars underneath were left…  My old friend Jess was in that dream.  I was at a track meet with Harriet and she walked off… and then I saw Jess.  She wrote me a letter and it came to me by air-mail (literally, the wind carried it).  As I was reading it and was going to write a response, I then felt a kiss on my cheek.  I put the letter down to see Jess and we had a great time together.  “I just see you as my best friend, nothing more.  But we’re damn good best friends.”  I messaged her this morning saying I wanted to see her.  Because I do.  Jess was an absolutely critical person in my life and we drifted so far apart without much reason or warning…  I’d love to reconnect.  Harriet’s singing with me for the Muse Coffeehouse in May 10th.  I can’t wait.  Our performance is everything I want it to be.  A Girl Named You.  Our Mango Tree.  Plus one new song.  We’re going to blow people away.  Progression Media is growing growing growing.  “Your company is inspiring.”  I wish my friends lived here.  Adam, Vicky, Jimmy, Tayler.  Best friends for life who I can’t even see.  So sad…  Hm, I’ve got some more work to do, so goodbye.

Bring Me Your Love

The Girl by City & Colour.  It’s a new song by Dallas Green from his new album, “Bring Me Your Love”.  It makes me happy.  It makes me think of a special someone.  All I can do is think of Harriet smiling and then think of how badly I just want to hug her and hold her close.  The moment I heard this song yesterday while in the car I was going to just send her a text saying, “I love you”, because the song really did just make me want her close more than anything. 

It’s so wonderful because it starts off really pretty and cute, almost… then really gets super upbeat and bouncy.  So the lyrics indicate lovely thoughts and the beat/rhythm is also a dynamic indication of this gay feeling. 

I’m listening to it right now… and I just felt like I had to write about it.  The feeling in me is so overwhelming.  I think when I see Harriet today at school I’m just gonna give her a huge hug.

I sometimes wonder if Harriet thinks I’m too over-bearing with my affection.  I wonder if she doesn’t like all the hugs, and kisses, and words of endearment.  But then I think… if it were me?  I’d never get tired of it.  I’d never get tired of hearing “I love you”, I’d never get tired of hugs or kisses or anything.  I’d never get tired of hearing that I’m her favorite person or that she misses me, even if we just parted ways.  To be loved, to feel loved… that stuff is so inspiring and necesarry to life.  I know it’s what keeps me going…  To know that I mean sometihng to other people is a huge drive for me.  I get up every day because there are people who want to see me.  There are people who have a hard time functioning when I’m not around.  And I love that, really!  I’m not saying I like the fact that people feel crappy when I’m not around…. but I love the fact that I can affect people like that- that I can be someone who brings happiness to another person.

For as long as I can remember, one of my number one goals in life has been to “make a difference in the lives of others.”  and I’m totally doing it.  I’m able to do it… because I’m just continually honest with myself.  I think… what would I like to hear?  How would I like a friend to treat me?  and I do that for the person sitting next to me… and I never leave that personal level.  I never treat my friends as strangers.  I treat them as if I’ve known them all my life.  And if you ask me?  That’s the best way to go about it.  Friendships die.  Relationships fade.  We’ve all got only one shot to make the most out of things- especially life- why should we ever, ever waste a moment by not giving a hug or not saying “You matter to me.” 

A lot of times people are overwhelmed by my friendship and love.  They often think, “I’ve known this kid for such a short time but he’s already measured up to someone I’ve known all my life…”  And that’s all I’m trying to do.  My life is always changing- the people in it continually coming and going, coming and going.  How else can I have a fulfilling life then unless I “give until there’s nothing left to give”?  People think that time is an indicator of friendship.  I say love is an indicator of friendship.  It doesn’t matter to me that I’ve known Harriet for less than half a year… she’s still the greatest love in my life.  It doesn’t matter that I’ve only been in a band with Allen for a little over a year… he’s still my brother and I still would do anything for him.  It doesn’t matter that I’ve only been in a band with Tim and Chris for less than a year… they’re also just like brothers to me.  It doesn’t matter that I’ve only been good friends with John for two years: I’ve officially decided to never forget him and always work hard at our friendship.  It doesn’t matter that I just started talking to Kirstin outside of school (at least more than often), I already adore our conversations and look forward to the next one.

A part of the beauty of life is how much you allow yourself to reach into the hearts of others and how much you allow others to reach into yours.  Maybe I’m too honest… Maybe I’m too affectionate… but fuck it.  I’m happy this way.  And I know that I make others happy every once in a while by being this way.  So continue it I will. 

Bring me your love….

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