I’ve been having a ridiculously hard time sleeping lately. Either something is noisy and keeping me up, I’ve got too much on my mind, or I just can’t find it in me to fall asleep. I can’t remember the last time I actually fell asleep before 3AM and I just want it to stop. I tried so hard to go to bed early last night and what do you know… I tossed and turned until about 2:45. And like, for whatever reason, last night I’d fall asleep for five minutes then wake up totally awake. It was bizarre. I think what kept me up the most was my mind. I started thinking about how Harriet used to call me “sweetie” and her “baby boy.” I started thinking about how badly I miss that.
“Sweetiee.” ”Yess?” “Oh nothing. I just want your attention.”
Then I started imagining I was playing Modern Warfare and went through the motions in my head of dominating on Rust. Yes- you are looking at an MW champ right here. I got first place three times yesterday, all with a commanding lead. I’m really starting to get used to Modern Warfare’s mechanics. But, going back to my main point, then there I was only by 3am falling asleep and fuck! It has to stop. I’m hoping tonight I’ll come home from class, eat dinner, work out, read, and be asleep by 1:30 at THE latest. Clearly my body is used to going to bed at 3, so I gotta at least just take some baby steps on working my way to an earlier time. Because you know, last semester, Erik and Joe would always get on my case about not wanting to hang out very late and I always pleaded I really just enjoyed the morning hours so much better than the late night hours. And now that I’ve experienced both fully, I stand by it: life just feels better when you’re awake for even hours of daylight and nighttime. It’s a bit more fulfilling I guess you could say.
But yeah, enough about sleep! Today John Mayer’s new album, Battle Studies, dropped! I’ve heard two songs so far and I’m not impressed… but c’mon. It’s John Mayer. He’s written 3 super awesome albums to date, is he really gonna drop the ball on CD number 4, randomly? It’s my guess that once I hear the LP quality and get into the nitty gritty details of his music, I’ll definitely come to appreciate it.
So I had a talk with Joe yesterday about my blogs and WHY I blog. He said he enjoys reading them and I thought that was rad. And you know, if you go back and look at old posts, I’d get people all the time going, “I completely agree with what you have to say.” People I don’t even KNOW were finding my blogs and just reading them, commenting on them. That used to happen because I’d share my feelings without restraint, I’d come onto WordPress to vent, rant, rave, and just chat. I don’t do that anymore. I come to WordPress usually with a purpose because as I get older, I do start feeling like the “update blogs” are kinda pointless. Well now I’m here to call “bullshit!” on the matter. It’s so much fun looking back on old posts to see exactly how I felt and exactly what I was doing like… 3 years ago. I can’t do that for the past year of my life because a) I stopped getting personal with my blogs and b) as already stated, I’m starting to find certain types of blogs stupid. but you know, when I write “about my day”… it’s not necessarily for “present me” to enjoy. That comes 2 or 3 years down the line when I look back and go, “No shit- I totally remember that now!” So I’m really going to take an initiative to just post ‘lil updates here when I can. A lot of my life is flying by without any type of documentation and it’s really sad that I’m not getting some of the details down.
Anyways, thanks to my dumb ass sleeping schedule, it’s now 11:20 and I’ve got lots I want to do before I go to class from 3:30-9:20. So bounce, I must! Gonna start things off with getting John Mayer’s new album. Expect a review up as soon as I have some concrete thoughts. 
au revoir! Have a great day.
